Thankless Career

Greetings Reader. I continue to reject to explain my situation (sorry, I really don't owe you one). If you've been keeping up with my last few posts, I'm sure you've created some assumptions. Some of which are probably correct. 
What I will tell you, is that I am going though a season. A season that is rocking the boat on several things in my life. I do not wish to elaborate further, but my poem that I'll be sharing today may shed some light on an aspect of what I'm going through. 
I've found great expression in rekindling my enjoyment of poetry. It's been freeing to write things out. At this point it's become a little like therapy for me to create these things. I'm sharing my latest creation with you below. 
Please remember to lead and live your life with a kind heart. It takes minimal effort. Something insignificant to you, could mean the world to someone else. Go make someone smile today! :)

Thankless Career
By: Jordan A.

Ungrateful job
Thankless career
No option for growth
Stuck in this gear

Constantly ask for more
But our day stays at 8
Work through or eat lunch
Am I subjected to this fate

Meetings on meetings
Fake gifts of appreciation
"We're making changes," they say
How come we don't see them

Waking up is impossible
The drive becomes harder
Motivation? What is that?
Chinks showing in armor

The whispers come first
Office gossip explodes
No more lunch invitations
No one wants to hear woes

No outlet is safe
No one to confide
Negativity trumps thoughts
I try, but can't hide

The avoidance stings
Adds fuel to the fire
Self-awareness sucks
It's support I desire

At the end of my rope
Feel like I'm going insane
Can't keep it up much longer
Inconceivable to remain

At this soul sucking hell
This thankless career
Constant state of exhaustion
Not one day without tears

"What do you want to do?"
The question they ask
"You can always make a change"
An easier spoken than done task

The soul searching begins
What life do I create
Never had clear direction
No dream or future that's innate

I'm in the driver's seat
A million paths I could take
Possibilities are endless
I lack guidance, fear mistakes

At the end of the day
I know I have to make a choice
Stay in this thankless career
Or take a risk, find my voice

Any change is a challenge
Growth doesn't come easy
One step at a time
Commitment to free me

Been starving my soul
Doing it for far too long
Hope it's worth it in the end
And I find where I belong