living a lie

"Hello reader! I am not about to address my absence. I'm not ignoring it, but I will not be talking about it during this post. I wrote a poem that I wanted to share with you today instead. 

Living a Lie
By: Jordan A.

You smile because you're happy
Or at least you're supposed to be
Laugh to cover the pain
Bury your emotions, no one can see

Can you imagine what they'd think?
If they knew about the demons
Test the waters, just a glimpse
Shit...too much? Hide the feelings

A storm is brewing
Pressure building by the hour
Distraction no longer working
What a fucked up superpower

Can't ask for help
Refuse to be a burden
Confide in no one
Hurricane of uncertain

"You okay?" that damn question
Pray no one asks
Never able to hold it together
Kindness the kryptonite of my mask

Tears build like Legos
Vision clouds with betrayal
"You need a hug?"
Nice rips away my veil

Niagara falls from my face
Façade is shattered
Strong no more
Ego, that baastard

Couldn't last forever
Living a lie
Existing at witts end
Soul shrieking "Why!?"

How does one exist in such agony
Wrestling thoughts, feeling, and experience
Distorting life, living false realities
The most underrated character trait: resilience