STRUGGLE BUS DRIVER: JORDAN
AReader! How are you!? Did you have a wonderful holiday season? Whatever you celebrate, I hope it was a great time. Have you committed yourself to any New Years resolutions? Have you already broken them? Are you remaining strong and disciplined? Did you give up before you started and not make any? Regardless of your decision on resolutions, I hope your 2021 is off to a promising start.
As you know, I've committed myself to quite the list of things to make positive changes. This first month is proving to be quite the eye opener for me how dedicated one has to be when making a lifestyle change. The first couple days of the year were kind of recovery based and therefore I didn't check off all of my boxes. The third day of the year was a Sunday though and I no longer had excuses for why I couldn't check off my boxes. Thankfully, I was very motivated that day and got all the things accomplished.
Every day since the third, I have completed my daily checklist. Not always because I wanted to, more so because I created a space of accountability and now I would feel like a bit of a failure if I didn't accomplish my tasks for the day. However, my motivation levels ebb and flow and are highly connected to my emotional state.
Being such an emotional person has it's benefits and it's downfalls. Currently, I would say a downfall is how much my emotions impact my overall environment and how much I struggle to continue with my day without them consuming my thoughts. I will say, since I've begun meditating and with the podcasts and books I've been incorporating into my life, I have noticed more emotional stability overall. I am better able to get to the reflective stage of my emotions quicker. I also have noticed less of a heat behind my negative emotions. Like I still feel negative emotions, but at the same time they aren't all encompassing or making my soul feel dead (hopefully that makes sense without sounding too depressing!).
What I do think that has helped me quite a bit so far, is that I literally made my goals the minimum of what I believe I can achieve each day. If I were speaking in my job terms, I'm working on establishing a baseline for my behavior/daily activities. Whenever a professional speaks about goal achievement, they talk about breaking down your big goals into small attainable steps and I feel like I've have succeeded in doing that.
Another thing they address when discussing goal achievement is consistency because goals don't happen overnight. While I know this is true, I feel like my brain goes one of two ways when I think about timeframe and goals. I guesstimate that I am further ahead than I actually am, or I feel like it is taking forever to get where I want to be. Patience may be a virtue, but it is something that is a mighty struggle for this soul. I think part of this comes from being so inactive for so long, now that I'm back in action, I feel like things should be just snapping into place. As the Grinch would say, "WRONGO!" This is completely false.
Goals are completed by consistency and discipline. Waking up every morning with intention. Following through. Honoring yourself and the promises you made. It comes from digging deep on those days that just suck the life out of you and you have to find a way to keep it running.
I don't know if I've had an actual goal that I'm working towards in a while because these are things that I know, but it feels foreign to put them in motion.
With that being said Reader, I have a few more things left today to accomplish before I can officially check all my boxes for today so I'll keep this short. If you made any time of resolution for this year, I hope that too are making that choice every morning to commit to yourself and what you're working on. I hope that you too find that oh so important accountability factor and find a system of support that will be there for you throughout your journey.
Please, be the reason someone smiles today and kick some butt in regards to getting shit done! I believe in you! :)
Until next time!
11/3/2022 11:49:52 pm
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